*Tuesday, September 20, 2005*
Flashes of Anger and Terrible Hatred
I was so mad... on Monday.. was made to wait for an additional 45 mins after that already long wait for almost an hour? All I get is lies lies and more lies. When will I ever get simple honesty? I was starving from the whole incident and feeling heady from the Earl Grey drunk on empty stomach. She sms me at xxxpm but was nowhere to be seen 20 minutes later. Worried that something happened to her, only to find out that she was stuck in the toilet? Then she kp her feet hurt because of the blister (courtesy of her vain-ness in wearing painful shoes) and wobbled her way down to meet me. I was fuming with anger as I couldn't understand why someone just wouldn't be punctual about it. In total, I waited for 2 hours and on top of it, hungry and starving. So freaking pissed and mad, I raised my voice a few times. In my promise to go her home and to eat 85 before that I had forgone my Fear Factor Special of 2 hours.
Never felt so angry before... I was so incensed by the whole bullshit that I refused to talk to her. She had an interview the next day so she continued the train journey home to pick up her clothes. I left in a huff at my MRT stop. After a flurry of heated smses. She actually went to buy food from 85 and took transport down to my place. God knows how much money she spent for 3 taxi trips but I was too incensed to enjoy my food. So blardy hungry yet full from anger.
Now we are OK I GUESS? But I don't know, from the way she's behaving it's as if nothing had happened. Is that her way of coping with it, pretending that nothing happened? I don't know why I am such a sucker for her and will always "forgive" her no matter what the crime committed... Guess I love her beyond cure. Why would someone not care for me if she loves me like she does? My patience wears thin, and I am sick and tired of all this bullshit. To be honest, I feel that she deserves no pity from me at all.
Su played with Magic @ 9/20/2005 11:18:00 PM
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